Thursday, 18 March 2010

Our Little Secret

Music: In the Middle - Sugababes

So Foxy Scott and I kissed at our office Christmas party and swapped phone numbers in the space of a minute.  My boyfriend Matt was just around the corner in the bar, but did I feel guilty?  Did I hell.  Matt was a manipulative arsehole who was going to propose to me on Christmas Day.

But what was I doing?

The fact that Foxy Scott had a girlfriend didn’t even enter my head.  I know, I'm a bitch right?

Well maybe.  I was drunk and caught up in the moment.  I felt attractive and desired again by someone who had been listening to what I had to say without rubbishing what I thought.  The fact that he was drop dead gorgeous and told me that he fancied me as well made me feel fantastic.

I also felt the thrill of the illicit:   No one else knew what had just happened. It was our little secret.

I left Foxy Scott and returned to the bar where everyone seemed to be getting ready to leave. Time had flown and it was about half one in the morning. Wow, I must have been a bit more drunk than I’d realised.

I stood chatting and saying goodbyes to my work mates as Foxy Scott walked past me. He didn’t say goodbye and he didn’t even look at me. Part of me wondered if it was because Matt was right there or if it was because he was embarrassed about what had just happened.

Before I could get too upset, I felt my mobile phone vibrate in my bag. Matt was busy arranging a night out with the team leader, so I unzipped my bag and saw that I’d received a new message:

From Foxy Scott:
I want you.

My heart started pounding again, and I clutched my phone to my chest in case anyone caught sight of the screen.

I glanced around but I couldn’t see him, but then out of the corner of my eye I spotted him waiting for a taxi outside.  I was standing slightly away from everyone else, so I immediately sent a reply:

To Foxy Scott:
Oh really? When?

Quite where I was getting this bravado from is beyond me. I can only think that after months of feeling like the inferior person in my relationship and due to a whole load of sexual frustration it bubbled up from under the surface. The sex life that Matt and I had was no more than a once a week going through the motions quick pump-pump squirt, and I hadn’t feel my whole body tingle like it was now in so long I couldn’t even remember.

My phone vibrated.

From Foxy Scott:
Come back to mine tonight x


No that wasn’t going to happen. I wasn’t just going to run outside and jump into a taxi with him, leaving my boyfriend behind. Although it was so very tempting. I decided to play along thought as I was enjoying the buzz of adrenaline.

To Foxy Scott:
Sorry I can’t. I would have loved to though ;)


From Foxy Scott:
OK.  Speak to you tomorrow x

Ahh yes, the football game was tomorrow. We had made a drunken wager on the outcome of the game, and the winner would pocket the princely sum of £10.  Yes, we're talking big money here folks.

I put my phone back in my bag and smiled contentedly to myself. Knowing something that no-one else did even though they had only been metres away made me feel like I had electricity flowing through me.

Matt finally came over as he’d finished organizing his social calendar and we went outside and jumped in a taxi. Fortunately Foxy Scott had already left so there was no awkward goodbye between the three of us.

“Did you have a good night?"  Matt said whilst stifling a yawn.  "I thought it was alright. A bit shit though.".

“I thought it was really good actually," I replied.  "Much better than last year.”

And I really, really meant it.

But what the hell was I thinking?  Foxy Scott wasn't single and neither was I. 

That was the problem:  I wasn't thinking.  Well not about that anyway.


  1. The excitement of that illicit text message...! Can't wait to hear what happens next!

  2. I get you. I'm curious about what happens next!

  3. I am absolutely loving this blog right now. Really well written, really funny. I'm adding you to this month's recommended blogs bit on my blog. Awesome stuff.
    *Plentymorefishoutofwater - One Man's Dating Diary*

  4. From Foxy Scott:
    I want you.

    I think I would have died!

    Foxy Scott has balls of Texas. Can't wait to hear more!

  5. Scandalous! I can't wait to see how this plays out!

  6. Reading your posts is like reading one of those graphic soft-porn novels I used to see when I was a kid. That is supposed to be taken as a compliment, by the way. You have a great style of writing.

  7. Tina, Wynn and Ken: Stay tuned and all will be revealed!

    Fishy - Thank you so much for your lovely comment and for adding me as a recommended blog! ;-)

    LifeBegins - Believe me, I almost did have a cardiac arrest there and then!

    Joe Cap - That is the funniest compliment I've ever received about my writing ever! Thank you though - I think!

  8. I can't believe how much I've got swept up in this story!

    But this and the fact that one of my friends once had sex with a guy in the Gents while his girlfriend was upstairs, makes me think that I'm going to have to accompany any future men in my life to the toilet!

    Rapunzel x

  9. Foxy Scott; why does his name remind me of Basil Brush?

  10. You're playing with fire..makes for fantastic reading though! x

  11. "Pump pump squirt"

    You've just brightened my entire month, Kate!

  12. you certainly was dancing on some thin ice there... but i can't wait to read what happened next.

  13. wow, that was a fun post to read, i know those feelings too.

  14. It is soooo good to feel attractive!!!

  15. That text! Hate to say this, gives a bad impression , but if I'd have been in your shoes with the nasty boyfriend but the gorgeous guy who tells me "I want you" I'd have been running into that cab quicker than a quick thing!

    Not only does your writing deserve great praise, your self restraint does too!

    You're a better woman than me! xxx

  16. Rapunzel - Aw cheers hon! Yeah, watch your future fella, but maybe wait outside the loo? ;-)

    Wombat - BOOM BOOM!

    Kitty - Thanks so much! I can't wait to hear what's happening with you and Jake too!

    Snafu - Haha! I'm glad my pathetic sex-life has brought a smile to someone's face!

    Jo - The next post is now up!

    Ca88andra - Yes I agree, but it's also so dangerous.

    Estranged - I know, his "I want you" text was so far over the line. But it really made me tingle. A big world of wrong I know, but with the way Matt was controlling me it was what I had been craving. That's no excuse I know...