January Sucks

Music: January Rain - David Gray

I'm glad January is almost over.  It's always the worst month of the year for me.  It's cold, dark, and this year was even worse as it's been horrendously snowy here in the UK.  I'm always skint in January after being paid early in December, and after splitting up with my boyfriend a couple of days after New Year's Eve I've not really been in the mood to socialise.  This is why my blog posts have so far have been about my previous dating disasters and not about what I've been up to, which is because in reality, I've not really been up to much.

January has been especially shit this year for another reason though.

Unfortunately before Christmas my Grandma was diagnosed with cancer.  Her radiotherapy has been going really well though and she seems to be feeling a bit better.  Therefore I'm going home this weekend to spend some time with my family, although my Mum is encouraging me to take my best friend Nicola up on her offer of a girlie night out.  I wasn't going to go out as it doesn't feel right for me to be heading to pubs with my mates and getting drunk when my Grandma is so ill, but my Mum keeps telling me that life goes on regardless and my Grandma wants the newly single me to go out and have a good time and forget all about my evil idiot ex-boyfriend.  She never liked him from the moment she met him.  If only I'd listened to her.  She's a wise old lady is my Grandma.

So what should I do?  I'm going back home to visit my Grandma on Saturday afternoon.  It's weird, but I think a night of letting my hair down with my friends might be just what I need after everything that's been happening.  I'm feeling loads better after the end of my last relationship (although I'm not quite ready to tell that particular story yet). Oh I don't know.  What do you think?  Should I get dolled up and hit the town with my friends?